Hopeless.

"Well you can't get what you want, but you can get me. So let's set up and see. 'Cause you are my medicine, when you're close to me."AS IF it's the fourth of Decemeber?! This is the first year of my entire life that I haven't had an advent calendar and I've not hyperventilated yet. Facebook is putting me through emotional turmoil, to be honest I'm in emotional turmoil anyway. One good thing I suppose is that I've finally got ££ for my film review. Have a read of the first bit of it and judge me:

"When a film begins with characters setting out on what is meant to be an idyllic camping trip to a secluded woodland, it's expected that the villain is to be one of either a cannibal, mutant, hillbilly or inbred race as demonstrated in films such as Wrong Turn(2008, dir. Rob Schmidt) and Deliverance(1972, dir.John Boorman). Without knowing what the film was about, I thought no differently when I started watching Eden Lake(2008, dir.James Watkins).

Going to Nottingham this week, man I have some good friends. I'll come back shiny and happy (i hope)

I got sunshine in a bag

Best bassline ever? I'd say "Clint Eastwood" has it, apart from maybe "Are you in?" or a few Red Hot Chilli Pepper songs. Really like "Up Melancholy Hill" by the Gorillaz (I've ignored this band for a while, forgetting how good they are) right now, maybe cos I like the lyrics quite a bit and they mean something.

Just had a look through a few old texts, and it's made me a bit nostalgic. Glad there's some more recent ones that make me happy.

This week I'm arranging to get more added to my tattoo (addicted!) and going out tomorrow night with a hell of a load of people. I love standard Monday nights out. The only thing that could get me down now is to find out Robert Sheehan has a girlfriend...which he does have-lame.

Odd one out.

I don't know what's happening to the world but everyone is getting excited about seeing Harry Potter (I fell asleep in the last one, and found it awful to watch) and wanting it to snow! Why would ANYONE want it to snow? Snow just means my parents don't want to drive so no lifts, other forms of transport are made awkward so can't go out and in the evenings, the small upton massive start throwing snow balls at everyone and it's COLD. I don't understand.

Charlottes Wank Bank

That's about all that's in it at the moment.
I can't sleep cos I'm so excited about the week ahead...lame? And I'm desperatly searching for an item of clothing but NOTHING matches the sort've thing I wanna buy. Just a denim fitted shirt just about long enough to wear on it's own would be nice?! Especially as I'm gonna wear it with no tights. Hopefully a shopping trip tomorrow will be succesful and then can get on with the drinking and socialising. Props'.

I feel so strongly for someone, and especially thinking about them right now hoping that they'll find some kind of comfort and light during a time that they are finding harder than any other time in their life.
It'd be such a shame to see this person, or anyone else I care for lose all of their energy and passion over something that doesn't need to mark the end.

♥

Finnished work which means shopping tomorrow & going out most nights!
Cant't wait, I love my life :)

Love!

I've developed an unhealthy love for this guy! I don't think I'll ever be happy in a marriage/relationship/engagement unless it's with him-espescially if he's anything like Luke in the film "Cherrybomb".

say yes

Finally got my tattoo, and it's nothing like I'd ever planned but I like it. It's nice and simple which I like but I'm already planning my next one. I was warned they'd be addictive. I'm thinking of adding to the one I've got and having it carry on up round my side but I'll give this one some time to itself and for me to make some more money.


Had a pretty good week and got a lot of stuff done/seen alot of people but I'm paying for it now as I think I've caught some illness. I'm extremely prone to colds, sore throat and an aches :(


Nice as most things are going well at the moment. Obviously of course that ONE THING that is still getting me down but I'm getting used to it now. Confusing people and getting told things that I didn't expect but don't really believe. Sick of liking someone this badly!! It's causing much frustration in alot of areas...if you get me ;) I think they probably know now which is also as frustrating :/


Standard working weekend then I'll do the standard nights out next week aswell, which I do love but would like to do something a bit different maybe? Had a nice catch up with a friend who promised there's nights of dressing up unusual antics coming up. I hope so!!

I don't know what the title is.

That's over then. I'm now officially single again as of this morning so I went and shopped for clothes and also my first ever tattoo which is happening next Wednesday at 3pm...which has been a long time coming. I look forward to tomorrow night as I haven't been out for a while. I'm gonna get very drunk.

I hate how I'm quite shy but act like I'm not. Actually, I'm not shy at all. Just careful... which always has me asking "what if..". What if I just said how I felt?!

Bored tonight, wish I could go out but not heavily drinking and dancing...just hanging out with some people at the cinema or in a bar with cigarettes. Bus timetable and not being able to drive is so limiting.

I know what I'm trying to say here, but it's not coming out right. Not like anyone reads this. If you are, do me a favour and chat up. Someone out there must have the power to make my evening more exciting, even if it's just a CONVERSATION.

A pretty standard music list.

No Doubt - Excuse me mr
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=it1aZBPuH4w&ob=av2e

3OH!3 - Colorado Sunrise

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVFJBOMy6Es

The Count & Sinden ft. The Mystery Jets - After Dark

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fs9vRtZsMz0&ob=av3e

Koto Stomp - Jet Set Radio Future (the xbox game)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uaUZFQJe0fs

Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Suck my kiss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=23-HXhTxHtQ&feature=related

Royworld - Man in the machine

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JTxdCXYQ7t4

The Wideboys - Sambucca

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eMVWA3FITh8

Russel Simins - I'm not a model

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=43B36RJsGPM

The Cure - Lullaby

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1aVesAlrtNM

Nirvana - Aneurysm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kStzzS6n3dA

Kings of Leon - Day Old Blues

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kStzzS6n3dA

Antony & the Johnsons - The Lake

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tg994BPCOIo

Robots in Disguise - Sex has made me stupid

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60TgbFcMMSU&feature=related

DJ Zinc ft. Ms Dynamite - Wile Out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QV9xbGkE9eg&feature=related

Swedish House Mafia vs Tinie Tempah - Miami 2 Ibiza

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZEdDNo92Fxg

Marmaduke duke - Rubber Lover

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ITi6TkzItQM

Blue Foundation - Eyes on Fire

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IHFVn0sv14

Major Lazer -Pon de floor

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QTI8Ec77RBE

Incubus - Rogues

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yryaqenmT-4

Eagles of Death Metal - Cherry Cola

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbvtHoJXrLM

Lil Wayne - Hot Revolver

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Smm0FQ-LHo

Blame Remix of Jackson 5-I want you back

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flLLv2rMcw8

Bar 9 - Murda Sound

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I8O4mR8pan4

David Bowie - Cat People (Putting out fire)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t01BpGCmErg

David Guetta and Akon - Sexy Bitch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xo_7bhk1UzA&feature=related

Blink 182 - What's my age again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K7l5ZeVVoCA

Mindless Self Indulgence - Money

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e0-OOJxYI2w

Taio Cruz - Dynamite

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hpGgBYeOgi0

Owl City - On the wing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IUAdrGKW-94

Kings of Leon - Radioactive

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gMMzhi0Sk1g

Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Warm tape

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSg1eb43Anc

Biffy Clyro -Bubbles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UxUb9Yzr1sE

Radiohead - Talk show host

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3VmAd1gkIqM

The White Stripes - Hardest Button to Button
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLESpHrtvxs

I feel better now I've written that out. Phewf.

interrogation

I got interogatted today! These are the most interesting questions I guess.

-Would you rather get stabbed or shot? And why?

Stabbed probably. I don't like the idea of getting stabbed and I always thought getting shot would be quicker but I heard that a bullet spins round and pulls skin/flesh/or whatever organs it goes past with it... sounds more painful to me. Plus, there's a chance I could get stabbed by a really stupid person who has no aim or strength.

-What do look for appearance-wise in a boyfriend?

Tall, dark hair usually (though blondes like John James are all good), more over to the skinny side but still looking healthy and boyish and hair is VERY important-lot's of it. Also, it's good if they have something quirky and cute about them...e.g. a cute nose ;)

-What about in their personality?

Being funny! Someone who makes me laugh is a definite! Chilled out...but not so chilled out that they don't seem to care about anything. Aaannd...likes going out places drinking, are social and enjoy getting along with people and meeting new people. I like a boy who is slightly mischevious too.

-Something you don't like in a boyfriend?

PESTERING! Someone who is too soppy and follows you around or acts like a kicked puppy. I like attention but not the sort that makes me feel sick.

- Why is someone who plays piano called a pianist but someone who drives a race car not called a racist?

Because racist means someone who has a problem with black people so that could cause a bit of trouble...?

-What do you think about getting drunk with someone you're seeing?

It's great. As long as the person I'm seeing isn't someone who ruins their lives in one evening or turns into a wetty after having one drink then what's the problem?

-Do you prefer French people or English people?

I can have a longer lasting friendship with an English person cos the conversation doesn't run out after asking the basics (how are you? where do you live? what is your name?...)but I love being around French people because they are sweeeettt and pretty fit ;) They have a nicer language and they just seem to enjoy themselves.

-Would you rather get attack by 50 duck sized horses or 1 horse sized duck?

1 horse sized duck. Cos then I'd give it to my mummy who'd make a roast dinner for the masses :)

Phewf :)

It's been a while since I came on here, and looking back at my last few post's I'm glad to say thing's have perked up since then. Thankgod...and it's Halloween!
Although, I'm totally running out of things to say so I might stop using this...I had alot more to say in Summer but now it's getting cold and dark so my weeks are taken up by working, magazines, music, standard nights out and online shopping. Got a lovely new shiny video camera on the way!
It's a bit annoying that someone had to bring up and remind me of something today that I didn't want to be reminded of. After moving on, you don't want to be put back thinking of someone again.

Errr ran out of things to say, hope this was somehow enlightening...;)
Bye :)

fuck!

Dad, please get better soon :'(

I want to leave. I have had hardly any sleep, cos suddenly things just went bad. I'm watching Russell Brand's "Shame" DVD and trying not to think about all the big and small problems and events that have happened in the past week. Any texts/love would be much appreciated...

Work tomorrow til 3. If anyones free after that then let me know. Hopefully on Monday I can go for a caramel hot chocolate with Bee, Tom and Giles in Worcester and this shit will have cleared up by then.

RIP

"I've got 5 fingers on each hand for every mistake that I made."

I hate some people, but really love the others, it's become that simple.

bearz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcgyKo7vbm4 This song is amazing and it reminds me of the girl in the picture above (partly cos she showed it me). I know it reminds her of something/someone else but I'm just saying now it's OUR song to me.

I'm writing this purely out of boredom as I should be dressed up and out right about now. Not going out means I have near enough 70 quid for tomorrow night which is a little dangerous in my hands ;).

Oh yeah, getting really annoyed at certain comments and how uptight people are getting about music. If I want to listen to a song, no matter how "shit" it is, I'll still listen to it...even if it really upsets you cos you're trying your utter hardest to stick it to Radio 1 and it interrupts your pool game. It doesn't mean I don't have the capacity to appreciate good music...sometimes (most times) I'd just rather chill out and chat about other things

Other than that I'm really happy. Getting a bit fidgety and missing kisses and things like that.

Wish right now?

I'm not sure if I want to go out tonight or save it for tomorrow. Winter gets me down, as its a bit lonely AND I was shocked to see someone has already got a Santa Clauss model peering out their window! But I'm happily liking someone right now. I hope now it's chillier, there'll be more houseparties, wine and staying up all night but in the warm rather than outside ;)

Someone text me a funny joke or something whilst I go smoke this neat little rollie I've just made. Boring old loneliness.

So much I

I have had a wonderful evening but tonight was not that evening. Thought I could come on here and write out all my feelings until they maybe made sense but nahh.

Instead, been thinking about and discussing my tattoo design, and I remember when I was younger I always wanted angel wings. Looking back, I think I misjudged that and realised I'd regret it at some point in the next 50 years so I've gone with a more cosmic design. Hopefully, I'll get it done alongside Bee when we've both decided what we definitly want.

I have to say how much I love the Red Hot Chilli Peppers. Since being the first band I ever saw live when I was about 13, I can still listen to the "By the way" album and be lovin every song.

Missing lotsa people who are now scattered all over the country. After suddenly dropping all respect I have for some people and just wondering why they are how they are, I could do with a Mighty Boosh night or something! Thanks tosserrrr.

My first kiss went a little like this...

"Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"

No it fucking ain't! I used to agree with the above but right now I'm not so sure. I'd rather not give a damn, like some people can (ryhme).

So excited that a friend suggested I join him to see a band tomorrow night in Birmingham. Gonna get some jazzy gear on and enjoy drinks, smokes, music, dancing and pushing up against some sweaty, sticky people. Gonna be electric.

Worcester on Monday, Malvern on Friday and then I'm off to Nottingham with Flicky to see our friends at their Uni and get away from this town. All round, autumn has started good.

Summers over and it's getting chilly, but I think it's still just about warm enough to strip off and run around? Maybe.

Always like this

I'm writing this really late again cos I'm still finding it hard to sleep! I'm currently sitting on my bed listening to Royworld in someone else's cardigan but feeling pretty good. Decided to wait until next year to go to uni cos getting everything ready in just a week proved too hard. I don't wanna go unprepared.

Instead I'm visiting all those people I love that have gone to uni and have a few things planned for this year. I am especially looking forward to Paris<3

I've had to accept summer is over and have ordered lots of nice, warm stuff to wear from Topshop. Getting my hair cut and my tattoo soon, lovely :)

Recovered from a nasty virus thanks to lots of love from Mumma and had some good nights out this week. Feeling happy so I give lot's of love to those who deserve it. Thanks y'all.

Just thoughts

"I’m keeping an eye on the future, an eye on the past, and the present in my pocket, just in case I need a door"-Brandon Boyd <3

Really enjoying the comforts of my bed and DVDs after having an awesome summer with some awesome people. It's finally caught up on me but I don't regret one thing.

Yuk, I've been very ill these past 2 days. Not cool. I've also been sorting out my uni stuff...there's alot more to think about when living alone than I first thought. Conditioner for example! I've spent the last 18 years basically believing that stuff just appeared naturally in the shower for when I needed it. Turns out I have to buy it.

Going out on Thursday for the last time with eeeeveryone. Should be good. Too much to be thinking about right now. I'm young and a girl, I just want to fall in love and shit like that.

Insomnia

Just finished watching Dez's "Something wicked this way comes" tour and whoaa look at the time (nearly 5am). My sleep pattern is well and truly fucked after not having a night in once this entire week. Definitely been enjoying the night time and not waking up til well into the daytime.

Don't remember much from Thursday night thanks to that crazy black bottle of vodka, but I DO remember being told that I have the "prettiest nose ever seen". Thanks! To add to the list of crazy stuff that occurred this week, my friend falling into a pond has to be a winner for the week. If not the best moment of my life.

Royworld-Man in the Machine, Marmaduke duke-Rubber lover, Incubus-Are you in, various Biffy Clyro and Robots in Disguise-Sex has made me stupid are all my top songs right now and I can't stop listening! Incubus and Red Hot Chilli Peppers remind me how good bands can really get.

I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be bad. Something is going to happen, I'm gonna hear something, someones gonna do something or it'll just be an incredibly depressing day all round. I'll bet anyone five GBP! :/ But I'm feeling relatively good so ready to just say fuck you or fuck it. I'm getting a tattoo.

Anywayyyy, gonna stick on my ipod + speakers and try get some sleepies.

Is there something wrong
You're here, but you're already gone
And i know, it's another world
And you shout, only to be heard
You're saying I'm just so cynical
I didn't know anything

C u next tuesday

We are an example of,

why not to fall in love

It takes a turn and then it hurts

more than you could dream of.

Good week, apart from my mind is still failing to work out a few things. Looking through all my old blogs I realise things have changed so much! Bringing me to now where I'm really not that happy. Wishing it was July again.

I would type loads of good things that have happened this week but I'm not feeling it. Oh, I can't NOT mention Tom falling into a pond, just thinking about that cheers me up. Have so much I want to say and do today. The idea of seeing someone just isn't going to happen cos there'd probably be excuses. Really really really down.

:'( :'(

SWEET

Think I must do something wrong in my sleep cos I have counted at least 3 people who have decided to be grade A's today. One of which has by coming out with some ridiculous statement that I don't know whether to believe or put down to them just trying to be awkward. Probably the latter and I'd rather it was that anyway. I've never really liked Sundays anyway...

I have Sangria and Rose waiting in my sisters mini fridge for tomorrow night at Toms house and going out Thursday as ever :) Quite looking forward to my foreign friend comin' over to stay, I dunno how impressed they'll be with around here. Excited!!

I love this little film, not just because you can see Noel naked (minus the elephant thong).

Don't touch me

I can live without you but without you I'll be miserable
Your all that I hoped I'd find in every single way

I have much love for Noel Fielding + Julian Barrat again! I missed their tinkers.

Loving the sun, I've been sat outside the White Lion with friends for a few hours enjoying it. Tomorrow should be good as I can see some people i haven't seen in a while and get dressed up and catch myself a chav for the evening. It's become a standard thing.

Yeeahhh!

Bookmarks did you say?

Can't wait for the next few weeks because I want to make the most of the last of summer and the people that are leaving. Some of them have become pretty important recently. Had a good week shopping, drinking (It's actually been pretty eventful during the evenings this week) and meeting someone that I like seeing, having coffee and smokes...wanna do that again soon :). Got VIP tickets at tramps for Thursday and will probably end up in Velvet to celebrate one of the closest people to me's 20th Birthday. He's an oldie. Keep thinking I have a lot to think about but I'll save it for another day.

Wasn't happy to see Noel Fielding is now with Courtney Love :o whaaa. Looks weird.

Issues (strop)

Issues with myself, cos there's always someone or something making you feel not good enough or used/taken advantage of, whichever.

Oh and why do people lie? :(

People really can't just suck it up sometimes and act how they feel and just make an effort and tell the truth. I've not been put in a very trusting mood and nor do I feel like bothering being nice like I normally like to be. I really appreciate people who openly discuss things no matter how important or unimportant just to make things easier.

Watched Toy Story 3 today, and had a few drinks with some nice person things. Simples :)

All I wanna do is just go go go

The picture is actually quite relevant, I'm not saying I'm good with a yo-yo (although I bet if I tried I'd be bangin' at it ;]) but it's symbolic(!) of my feelings right about now. If anybody actually reads this blog they can probably see how.

Got my A-Level results and I'm shocked at what I got. Tad annoying cos I'm not doing anything with them, but at least I got them there.

A good chum of mine introduced me to a song that I can't get out of my head (she's been responsible for a lot of the songs I'm into right now)! Was very excited to hear it last night whilst we were out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2vWQFHP3D0 Think people should check that out.

Aaand the yo-yo thing. Refers to something that keeps making me happy then unhappy. Events this week have made it 10x harder :/ I just wish I wasn't so easily lead on. It's a good job I have 3oh!3, cigarettes and a few pubs round the corner to make it all better ehhyyy :D

she's a waster

Feeling alot better about this month :)

Get my results tomorrow, which I'm not expecting to be great and that isn't modesty I just dont think its possible I'll get more than Cs (if that)when my attendance was 52% at college. It's just another reason to see my friends and go out in the evening, which I'm looking forward to alot as I'll probably get lovin' off a pikey as usual (Y)

Not that I need grades because I'm off to south France to save people who can't swim and it's taken a hell of a lot to arrange. I hope the picture above of the view from my flat will tempt people to come visit meee :) plleeeasee.

This week I dressed up, got stung by a wasp, watched films and sat by a fire smoking and drinking wine with some cool people. Bunch of other stuff to which has made it awesome.

I'm happy right now and have no idea why!!

Actually I do know why. Lolzz. <3

sick

I've had the best month and a bit ever I could wish for. If these are the things that make my life complete then call me simple but I love it.

Missing France a lot, I always feel this way after I come home. Only ever drinking Sangria, swimming in the sea at 2am and tanning was perfect and I want to see the people again really badly.

Had so much fun drinking wine out of plastic wine glasses, getting busted, falling off walls, falling over in general watching Harry Brown, crazy dancing, and especially singing along to Biffy Clyro.

Although, can't help today but feel down about a lot of things. It feels a bit like I'm missing something and I don't know what. July has definitely been better than August, but because I like being happy I'm just now going to go listen to some music and get ready for Beas birthday.

When did what "other people say" become the truth?

STOP assuming things!!!! Unless the person themselves explicitly says something then don't go believing anything about other peoples lives and feelings.

I like to keep my feelings relativly private, and there's rarely a time that ANYONE knows exactly what I'm thinking. I change my mind alot, never too sure about things, and honestly just want to enjoy my life. I don't like it when things that are supposed to be fun and have been fun suddenly become serious and rubbish thanks to other people.

I've lost my last lip stud, and dont have anything else to keep it open with so the bars just gonna fall out and it'll heel up :'( GREAT.

I'm gonna save my money (after tomorrow) and go on a huge, amazing holiday before jetting of to saving people who get trapped in the sea.

Lessons I have learned...

...mainly from my friends experiences:

1. Don't drink and drive

2. Don't hang outside where you work looking like a yob as your friend scales the building

3. Don't laugh in FUCKING SERIOUS situations

4. Do get drunk in Upton cos it's fun!

5. Sleep properly

After looking after my silly best friend who nearly got us all arrested(bless him) I'm now going to snuggle up and watch The Mighty Boosh so I have energy for tomorrow night which should be electric.

I miss someone already because they make me smile :) Might give Roxi a ring...Malvern pubs are looking attractive ALREADY.

SWYD ;)

make me laugh, but it ain't enough...

"...you should just go and say it yourself"

Hello August. You're rubbish :)

Night

I can't keep up with you, I can't keep up

"Cos I'm wasted, I'm face down on the floor, can't take anymore, gave it all away, lately I can't find my eyes, help me realise that I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love"

Pretty much sums up the past few days, particularly the bit about the floor. Those lyrics are from a song called "Charlotte", coincidence?

Watched "Lucky Number Slevin" the other day thinking any film that was advertised with Josh Hartnett in just a towel for a whole 5 minutes had to be good. It was. Finally getting some money for doing some (well actually alot of) writing. I promise it'll be a better standard than the writing on here.

It was pimms o clock at my house with Roxi, Becca and Anna on Thursday, and I think we did it bloody well. That night was just all around good. Can't wait to do it all next Thursday!!

Why can't I stop thinking about someone?!?!

Oh please..

I'm not in a good mood. Something is bothering me and I really don't want to be bothered. Sometimes I hate dealing with other people, because it can upset me, and I don't want that. Lucky I realise this though so I can have fun tomorrow night with my friends, cos I do like dealing with them.

Since writing the above paragraph I have ordered quite a nice amount of new clothes which has cheered me up by like 30%. Seeing Toy Story 3 and Inception would be good, I feel like doing something fun and different.

I wish I was Edie Sedgwick, she may be dead but at least she was gorgeous.

what I really want right now?

Alot of things but a cigarette would be good right now

The list of bands I want to see is getting longer and that needs seeing to, plus there are now two films I'm desperate to see at the cinema. It's absolute chaos. No time for complaining though as I'm excited for the week ahead and creating my own kind of drink.

France, romance, sangria and pricks

This years holiday could've been the best I've ever had. I never expected myself to drink sooo much sangria and meet such awesome people that I'm going to/already do miss a lot. One certain person in particular...

Although I always knew it would be lame leaving, coming home has made me realise how much I DON'T want to be here. Not because of the shitty weather or lack of cocktails but because of a few people here and how unsure of things they've suddenly made made me feel. Wow, can't some people be Grade A nob'eds.

That aside, tomorrow night is looking good already, and I can't wait to get the drinks on in my bedroom and go to Worcester for the first time in two weeks. Hells yeah.

Mmm

I've gone from The Plough in Upton, to Velvet Lounge, to a (terrifying) plane journey, to swimming in the sea, getting bitten by a fish and finally ending up sitting here in a bar with a massive glass of Sangria. No sleep since 11am yesterday. I surprise myself sometimes.
Can't say I'm missing England too much ;)
I do wish I could see someone though :)

Bye :)

I'm off to party with the French/Spanish people at the end of this week + can't wait. Everytime I go to our apartment I always end up drinking and swimming (sometimes at the same time) with the French. Was even lucky enough to befriend a Kanye West lookalike last time with Bea ;)

Shall miss everyone and my incredibly unhealthy lifestyle until I get back hopefully with a bangin' tan.

I'm especially going to miss Danny Peaks but hey, absence makes the heart stronger. We do everything for eachother and are so alike. I love him especially when he gives me his clothes...

..oh wait

I could really use a wish right now, wish right now

What a good week :) Last night was sophisticated on the street's of Malvern with plastic wine glasses and lots of wine + a firework display, night before was a good night in Worcester town, Tuesday was just hilarious and Monday destroyed my lungs. Guess I could say the company has been pretty cool too :)

I'm going on holiday so I hope next week can be just as good.

I'm in love..

With this man.

I've also recently decided that this is now my song..

Today I feel sick, tired, got an achey neck and really really regretful but its all worth it:) I really want someone to come with me to the cinema soon because I haven't been in ages. Best stay out of my hometown for a while aswell...

Brandon Boyd is amazing

"Hats off and applause to rogues and evolution.

The ripple effect is too good not to mention.

If you’re not affected, you’re not paying attention.

It’s too good, too good

Not to have an effect. "

I love my dad right now cause he is actually hilarious. Esepcially when he eats too much foreign Haribo and acts like he's high.

ARGH

I hate this feeling when you realise you wasted about 6 months of your life devoted to/listening to/being made to look stupid for/loving something completely pointless. I know I'm not in the wrong, at least any more, and it would be far from a bad thing if someone just got over it and tried to be nice and accepting for once. In case this person is reading this: I know you so well, I know you've lied, and I want you to know I'm over it so please get over over yourself. I know we get on, and you can't go from loving someone to not giving a fuck in a week so just accept that I'm willing to put everything aside in order to be civil. How your acting makes me think there's something a lot more complicated going on in your head concerning me.

Phewf :) anyway, I went to the beach yesterday and it was fun but I've come to the decision that I hate sand and I hate Weston-Super-Mare. I also now really want to leave this country and go to somewhere more respectable. Yuk.

just one of those moods.

I'm building up my wardrobe to be similar to hers. This includes a leotard, I'm finding it hard to find a day where I want to wear it though.

One of those moods, where I'm feeling romantic and excited, but down because I haven't been out somewhere in a while. I'm hoping a standard Monday night out is going to sort out me feeling down, it always does. I haven't got much to say today, as I'm trying too hard to stop thinking about something.

The difference between "climactic" and "climatic"

"I was influenced by David Lynch's Eraserhead (1976) to have a constant background drone creating tension and suspense throughout the first few frames of the sequence until the climactic scenes drop away into nothing when the body is revealed, representing the empty feeling of loss and morbid mortality that humans have to face when dealing with death. The choice of song "Nothing Else Matters"(Metallica), emphasises the hopelessness and nihilistic mood of the end sequence through the lyrical content, Metallicas counter culture status and the anti-Hollywood/anti-glamour realism in the song"

Looking back on my Evaluation of my A2 film, I have just realised that I have referred to the weather/climate rather than something climaxing. Ggr, I wander if that will hurt my grade much.

I am going to dye my hair later, plan my tattoo and think about how many more piercings I want on my ears. I love body mod, it can really give someone an edge. I believe if someone has a piercing or a tattoo, it says alot about them as a person, likewise if they don't. My perfect man I think would have to have an eyebrow piercing.

It's a nice day so I'm going to see my friend and smoke and drink alot at The Morgan. Definitely up for going out and spending alot of money this week as it's been a tiresome weekend.

Bye :)

When you develop an infatuation for someone you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn't need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky, for example. Now, in the long run, that's just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, it's just what you've been searching for all these years.

Without trying to sound like a little girl, I'm finally over something I thought I never would. There was a time I couldn't listen to certain songs or go certain places justt because it reminded me of someone I thought I loved. Now, I'm quite happy to say I can do whatever the f- I want without being sad. Yesssss.

I'm excited to get my tattooo aswell which is going to look like that with a few differences >>>>

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This could be a bad idea

This is the first time I've ever written a blog (I think) and for those who are reading this who don't know me, all you need to know is I used to cry and kick the television when UK didn't win the eurovision song contest. I like to remain mysterious.

I've left college and now I'm scared. Apart from working in Newquay for a month doing promotions (hells yeah), I don't know where I want to go after this. A few months ago I thought life consisted of and always would consist of getting wrecked, being with someone special and seeing my buds. Plan is to keep doing this until someone tells me it's time to grow up a bit.

Oh yeah, and I am definitly into someone right now. I'm feeling good it's not the same person it was about a month ago, when I was unhappy. Boom.