Wednesday, 30 June 2010

I'm in love..

With this man.

I've also recently decided that this is now my song..

Today I feel sick, tired, got an achey neck and really really regretful but its all worth it:) I really want someone to come with me to the cinema soon because I haven't been in ages. Best stay out of my hometown for a while aswell...

Sunday, 13 June 2010

Brandon Boyd is amazing

"Hats off and applause to rogues and evolution.

The ripple effect is too good not to mention.

If you’re not affected, you’re not paying attention.

It’s too good, too good

Not to have an effect. "

I love my dad right now cause he is actually hilarious. Esepcially when he eats too much foreign Haribo and acts like he's high.

Saturday, 5 June 2010


I hate this feeling when you realise you wasted about 6 months of your life devoted to/listening to/being made to look stupid for/loving something completely pointless. I know I'm not in the wrong, at least any more, and it would be far from a bad thing if someone just got over it and tried to be nice and accepting for once. In case this person is reading this: I know you so well, I know you've lied, and I want you to know I'm over it so please get over over yourself. I know we get on, and you can't go from loving someone to not giving a fuck in a week so just accept that I'm willing to put everything aside in order to be civil. How your acting makes me think there's something a lot more complicated going on in your head concerning me.

Phewf :) anyway, I went to the beach yesterday and it was fun but I've come to the decision that I hate sand and I hate Weston-Super-Mare. I also now really want to leave this country and go to somewhere more respectable. Yuk.

Thursday, 3 June 2010

just one of those moods.

I'm building up my wardrobe to be similar to hers. This includes a leotard, I'm finding it hard to find a day where I want to wear it though.
One of those moods, where I'm feeling romantic and excited, but down because I haven't been out somewhere in a while. I'm hoping a standard Monday night out is going to sort out me feeling down, it always does. I haven't got much to say today, as I'm trying too hard to stop thinking about something.

Wednesday, 2 June 2010

The difference between "climactic" and "climatic"

"I was influenced by David Lynch's Eraserhead (1976) to have a constant background drone creating tension and suspense throughout the first few frames of the sequence until the climactic scenes drop away into nothing when the body is revealed, representing the empty feeling of loss and morbid mortality that humans have to face when dealing with death. The choice of song "Nothing Else Matters"(Metallica), emphasises the hopelessness and nihilistic mood of the end sequence through the lyrical content, Metallicas counter culture status and the anti-Hollywood/anti-glamour realism in the song"

Looking back on my Evaluation of my A2 film, I have just realised that I have referred to the weather/climate rather than something climaxing. Ggr, I wander if that will hurt my grade much.

I am going to dye my hair later, plan my tattoo and think about how many more piercings I want on my ears. I love body mod, it can really give someone an edge. I believe if someone has a piercing or a tattoo, it says alot about them as a person, likewise if they don't. My perfect man I think would have to have an eyebrow piercing.

It's a nice day so I'm going to see my friend and smoke and drink alot at The Morgan. Definitely up for going out and spending alot of money this week as it's been a tiresome weekend.

Bye :)

Tuesday, 1 June 2010

When you develop an infatuation for someone you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn't need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky, for example. Now, in the long run, that's just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, it's just what you've been searching for all these years.

Without trying to sound like a little girl, I'm finally over something I thought I never would. There was a time I couldn't listen to certain songs or go certain places justt because it reminded me of someone I thought I loved. Now, I'm quite happy to say I can do whatever the f- I want without being sad. Yesssss.

I'm excited to get my tattooo aswell which is going to look like that with a few differences >>>>

This could be a bad idea

This is the first time I've ever written a blog (I think) and for those who are reading this who don't know me, all you need to know is I used to cry and kick the television when UK didn't win the eurovision song contest. I like to remain mysterious.

I've left college and now I'm scared. Apart from working in Newquay for a month doing promotions (hells yeah), I don't know where I want to go after this. A few months ago I thought life consisted of and always would consist of getting wrecked, being with someone special and seeing my buds. Plan is to keep doing this until someone tells me it's time to grow up a bit.

Oh yeah, and I am definitly into someone right now. I'm feeling good it's not the same person it was about a month ago, when I was unhappy. Boom.